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I am gay , mixed race but not black or white , I am Filipino but also Indian, I get social anxiety , I am neither skinny or super large, I like rock but I also like rnb, and pop I probably could go on. 

I feel so removed from the white , straight man that people seem to put on a pedel stool . How do I deal with this feeling? It all depends on my feeling - sometimes I accept it , sometimes I fight it , sometimes I rebel , sometimes I express it externally. 

I honestly feel so alone at times , like no one understands me. I think the only ones that do at least for the most are my siblings. 

I have probably touched upon this but at school , and well into my early 20s it seemed people whether I slept with them , or even  were just supposedly my friends, found it okay to use the p and c racial slurs , fag , puff etc . At times it was even indirect ; 'where are you really from?' , 'how to do you cook curry' , 'who''s the women in the relationship '. There was this one time; I was at a conference eating sandwhiches, and some white women comes up to me and out of the blue says how she could relate to me , as only that morning she was the only white women on her train carriage . 

Maybe many of such indirect comments come from a place of wanting to learn , but at the same time it makes me feel like a zoo animal . I feel more then just my race , my sexuality and gender .